Hold Me

I miss you so fucking much
I can’t stand
I can’t breath
I can’t stand it.
You are supposed to be so close to me.
It’s been over a month since we’ve spoken
when it used to be that too many hours killed you.
It’s been over a month since I’ve seen you
when it used to be that one single night would kill you.
It makes me sick to think about,
but it’s all that I can think about,
we had so much left to do,
we had so much more to be.
Falling asleep alone is tough,
but waking up alone, without you
there to hold me like you always did,
after having nightmares of the person I fear that you have become,
Is more than I can handle.
In the name of the father, the son,
and all that is holy
I beg of you Lord,
tell my lover to hold me.
Easy with the Lord may I please ever rest
for I love you so much, Bean, I love you to death,
and I miss you so fucking much,
I am crying while typing at the thought of your soul,
I am broken
I can’t breath
baby, hold me.